2006-02-20 - 12:44 a.m.

To my dear diary list: I promise to keep things clean. But mostly love and the understanding was beautiful. He wrote something beautiful let me get it "And all it was was something beautiful" I understand it all. And yet people would think that I lose but in the end, I have found out what in the end I would not. But I understand. It takes me closer to home nowadays. Now that I don't have it. But I understand. I want to be perfect. Not enough Shane, I should have had more but it happens. Holy awkard moment batman I understand. And you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking. I heart the PF in moments like this. I think I wrote Julie a message earlier, or maybe it was you. SOmething is possessing my arm.
Like a burglery I have to tell my story to you all. I feared the woods but in the heat of passion I decided to save whats left of my soul. So I entered the dark wood and ran, ran with what I had left. I finally got to the place where they were and pretended to be wholesome and beautiful but they were all decieved. I got that from LOTR. My PF was on shuffle, shuffle only sucks when it sucks. MY iPOD IS BROKEN again! M-Ferrrrr!!!! I HATE IT!!!. HAve you ever transended? I mean to this place its warm here. And you are so happy that you don't be in control. For once I am swengin! Thank you Shane! Without him there is no me. My throat hurts. Too much weed. NOt much left. If you think that you can hurt me NO you do not! I hurt myself more. I am my biggest anger. I anger myself more then others. I feel worthless and careless in this moment. I want what everyone ever wanted in this section of their life. I wanted peace, and disharmony. I want their souls to infest those around me causeing the next break in, the next rape. Yeah we cause all that shit to happen in this world. My foot just exploded. WITH PASSION MUTHER FUCKERS!!!! I can handle it? Can you? FUCK ME?!
Deadwood surprise stew. I'd kill for a bowl of that!

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